so i’ve been putting this off for months now…

… I’ve been wondering whether or not it’s the right decision, how I should execute it. I think I’ve come to realize that there is no elegant way to put it and dragging on isn’t helping anyone. I don’t like unfinished business and this has been cluttering my brain space for a while:

From this moment I’m stopping posting here on Lace and Fog.

(I just retyped that sentence twenty-seven different ways and I’m not happy with any of them…)

I guess this is so hard because ceasing to blog here feels like I’m giving up on something… But let’s be honest, I haven’t been keeping up on the posts very well for some time. All it’s been these past few months are my favorite things illustration posts. (NOTE: I DO think I’ll continue illustrating those and you can keep up with them via my instagram.) 

Anyway, while Lace and Fog was a fun creative outlet (where I’ve written over 100,000 words- oh my!) I really hit a turn last summer/autumn. I didn’t know what Lace and Fog was anymore, I was unhappy with the name, and more than that- I MYSELF was in a time of unknown drifting.

Perhaps once I get my footing and find my pace I’ll come back to blogging (on a different site) but while I’m going through this time of searching I really just want to clear things out. I feel I need a clean slate and some wide openness so I can get some perspective.

I know some of this might sound concerning, but really I’M OKAY. Just because things are uncertain (which, they have been for a while) and seemingly directionless (what’s new) GOD IS STILL CARRYING ME. Even though some days are tough, I’m clinging to Him with faith that it’s going to work out. ^^

Honestly, while fangirling randomly can be fun, the main thing I’m going to miss is you guys…

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I really want to say think you, dear blogging chums, kind commenters, and folk I truly consider as my friends. You guys are what made this blog worth any time and effort. I don’t know if you understand just how much each of your nice notes or friendly chattering meant to me. MEANS to me…

Thank you. 

Now, I’m not vanishing from the blog-sphere completely. Actually, I hope that without Lace and Fog nudging my thoughts all the time, I’ll have more energy to get involved in the comments section of YOUR awesome blogs.

So… I’ll talk to you later. ♥

 

december 2016 favorites

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“AGE OF YOUTH”

Friendship. Communal living. Love interests. Young woman trying to make their way in the world. Mysteries and drama and, oh yeah, a possible ghost living in the shoe cupboard. This Korean drama had so much of what I love in stories. Right from the first episode I was hooked. I enjoyed every episode, both wanting to rush through all twelve to the end and wanting to take things slowly so that it WOULDN’T end. (I would’ve been all for this show continuing through 16-20 episodes…)

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Each of the five female “leads” have their own fleshed out histories and present issues that they’re trying to figure out. I thought Eun-Jae’s venture into romance was sweet. Ye-Eun finding her own strength was something to cheer. Jin-Myung trying to figure out that she maybe doesn’t have to be so strong was one of the most moving storylines. Yi-Na was actually one of the most interesting characters and even in her promiscuous ways I really enjoyed her parts of the show. And then there’s Ji-Won, the quirky personality that I think deserved even more screen-time and more depth than what she got. Still, these characters felt so wonderfully relatable and understandable. Beyond the wildness that the episodes build to, what I liked best was how real these ladies were. Almost like people you would actually know- like friends. This one’s an all time favorite for me. (And gah. I want more episodes…)

 

CHEESECAKE M&Ms

Shelled in pretty white, cream and pink candy-coating, this specialty flavor is such a treat! (I’m guessing from the color scheme) these may be a seasonal, Valentines item, but I would love them all year round! Definitely better than the regular white chocolate variety.

 

COMICS BY OMYO

While I’ve been struggling to settle into reading (or completing) a book for a while now, I’ve found it much easier to Keep Reading comics on the WebToons app. This last month I read both of Omyo’s completed series. “The Stories of Those Around Me” is one with a quiet and gradual plot, almost leaning more towards slice of life in my opinion, while “Salty Studio” seems to have a more definite arch with a touch of mystery. These comics aren’t perfect (and there is some language) but Omyo’s skill with the webtoon format is evident and the art is sweet.

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JORDAN KLASSEN & NICOLE ZEFANYA

Something else I forgot to mention above about “Age of Youth” is the drama’s music! I couldn’t help but seek out some of the songs from the episodes, and one of them belonged to a Canadian artist named Jordan Klassen. Discovering more of his songs, I’ve been playing some of the over again. Here’s a tune moody and a tune more up beat for your listening pleasure…

I stumbled upon Nicole Zefanya’s channel through one of her covers and found I adored her original works! Not only can this girl sing, but she’s also a beautifully poetic lyricist. Some of her lines just make my chest twist by their truth and arrangement.

CHRISTMAS GIFTS

Though vague, I had to through this in. My parent’s are just too kind and thoughtful. More than the fact that my gifts were just PERFECT I feel so grateful for the ones who gave them to me.

HABAKKUK 3:17-19

December (and probably the several months pervious) felt very much like I was weeping over fruitless trees and empty pastures. It felt like I’d tended and watched and tried and fought- only for the result to be… faint. Failing. A disappointment… So that’s why December’s scripture is this. Because though at first look things seem a bleak and they don’t measure up, it isn’t where my bounty it found. The world may see barren branches and vanished sheep, but in the unseen… No. I have an overflow never to be lost to me. Thank you Jesus that you are my constant and all and that because of You I can rejoice in every moment. You lift me up all the while.

november 2016 favorites

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WHITE CHOCOLATE CRANBERRY OATMEAL COOKIES

Presently being in the holiday season, there’s been a LOT of good food. I probably could’ve made a whole favorites illustration for the delicious treats I’ve been gobbling! But for this round I chose to go with one that was homemade my yours truly. These cookies turned out wonderfully thick and chewy. I thought they were the perfect amount of sweetness, crowded inside with dried cranberries and white chocolate chips. Plus, being made with hearty “healthy” oatmeal makes the perfect excuse to grab an extra!

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BONUS: SUGAR COOKIE PRINGLES

I know, it sounds weird, but they’re DELICIOUS. At the first taste there’s a gentle cookie sweetness that melts away to salty crisp… If you like sugar cookies and you like Pringles, THESE WORK.

 

“S. M. Z.”

These initials stand for my older brother, my sister in-law, and my niece who flew into Kansas to visit us from California. I loved every moment we got to spend with them. Sharing meals and memories, supporting one another and laughing together… Just holding and making my niece laugh. All were good times and I miss them now they’ve gone again.

 

MAGIC LESSONS PODCAST

Hosted by Elizabeth Gilbert, this podcast is an extension of her book, “Big Magic” (which I just borrowed the audio for). She explores all the angles and blocks and hurdles of creativity (of all forms) through interviews with struggling creatives, matching a sort of mentor with their case, and then going back for a follow up on how they’re doing. Elizabeth is gentle and honest with the people she interviews. This is a goldmine of inspiration for anyone toiling through the arts.

 

KOREAN DRAMAS

I don’t know how long it’s been since I’ve completed a Kdrama. I can’t tell you when it was I became too busy and not as interested… and I can’t tell you why. Because for the past few weeks I’ve fallen for Korea. Again. I’ve fallen fast and hard and I don’t know why I ever “left” it.

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I watched “The K-2”. All of it. (Mostly on the DramaFever app.)

It’s true that the show had it’s issues (too many old politicians mumbling, some aspects that were just too over-the-top…), but I loved the lead couple and the FEELS. I’d forgotten that shows could make me giddy and excited and clicking “just one more episode”… Don’t get me wrong, there are some American/British shows that I love, but there’s just something different about Korean dramas…

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Now I’ve started on “The Legend of the Blue Sea, which is a completely different pace and bit goofy (in the fun way). I also have my eye on a few others… I want to watch ALL THE SHOWS… but I’ll still take recommendations. If you have any?

 

GOLD NAIL POLISH

This month I went to the nail salon with my mom, sister in-law, and grandma. I’ve never had my nails done professionally before. The other’s were getting pedicures, but I have a thing about people touching my feet (they cramp real easy) so I thought I would just ease into the experience with a fingernail polish. I’ll admit… it was a little weird getting my hands/wrist/forearm messaged by a MAN… Okay, a lot weird. But it also felt nice. And I loved the soft glitter-gold I picked out.

 

GREEN TEA LATTE

I have some steeping matcha, but this was my first time trying the powdered kind (even if it was just at Starbucks). I think I’ve my new go-to hot drink. I LOVED IT.

(My mom on the other hand… she hated her taste so much that I actually felt back. I tried to argue with her that it does NOT taste like grass…)

 

2 CORINTHIANS 12:8-10

I’ve been feeling very failing, incapable, and weak lately. While I am trying to better myself and figure things out, I’m also trying to remember that He can use this mess. He can use this broken. He can work even in the small, even in the uncertain and afraid… We just have to say “yes”, cling to the hand He offers, and keep going one step at a time.

october 2016 favorites

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Rachael Stephen

This month I stumbled across a YouTuber with green hair, delightful wit (if scattered with some corse language…), and some awe-inspiring skills when it comes to the craft of novel making. Rachael Stephen’s channel is full of writerly tips and teaching~ some of which she used to create a wonderful ebook titled “How To Build a Novel”. Now, I’ve read mountains of writing advise, but Rachael’s seems to come at my brain in a whole new way that just MAKES SENSE. While I’m not writing at the moment I know that many of her methods and angles will come in handy when I do.

Here’s also a link to her main website.

Autumn Leaves

Because of the smell and the color and THAT SOUND when you step on them. I’m not into jumping into piles of leaves (makes me itchy just thinking about it), but I might be that person on the street taking uneven strides so she can step on every delightfully crunch bit.

Glazed Pumpkin Cake Donut from Baker’s Dozen

So, I mentioned this ring of spice and autumn feels in my post about pumpkin spiced things… I had another last week. It was still delicious and shall remain a favorite second-breakfast-treat. YUM.

MREE

This DIY music artist has been around for years, but I only discovered her recently. Her music has a moody, melancholy tone. The lyrics can be both quirky and meaningful. A bit alternative, a tiny touch of off-beat jazz, and all around just dreamy. Some of my favorite songs are “Laundry Bin”, “Little Bird”, and “Lift Me Up” (which I’ve posted below). Here’s a link to MREE’s YouTube channel.

Psalm 119

So you may or may not have gleaned from my off-handed mentioning… Things have been rough. Within the last couple months I feel as though all my pursuits and ideas have dropped out from under me and… I’ve been feeling very lost. I’ve lost all motive, direction, and even enjoyment for the things that were once my goals… But God is Here. Even when I don’t know what Here is- even when I don’t WANT to be Here, God’s not left my side and He has a purpose for this time.

So I’ve been seeking Him, because I know that He has all the answers I need. He has all the strength, guidance, peace, and joy that I’m so desperate for. One way I’ve been seeking Him is to spend more time in His Word. I believe reading the Bible with devotion is important in any time of life, but I’ve found it especially necessary in these moments when He just feels silent or distant. Reading scripture I can steady myself on the truths of His presence and goodness, even when I don’t exactly feel it.

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Any who- this month’s favorite chapter of scripture comes from the first entry of a free ebook that I’ve begun working through. I’m nine days into this 30 day book and I’m really finding comfort in it- well, more like I’m finding comfort in the scriptures it directs me to. While the brief words of each entry are a good guide for thought and prayer, what I’ve really liked about this devotional is how much focus is on just reading good, solid chunks of God’s precious word. If you’re going through something difficult (and who isn’t?) or if you’re just looking for a devotional, I heartily recommend this ebook.

a parade of pumpkin spice

As most of you know, pumpkin spice~ this “autumn flavor” of coziness and warmth and delight~ is one of my favorites. So at this time of year I rejoice! because food brands come out with their own limited edition varieties in this festive taste. This year I made it a goal to try some new pumpkin spiced things. It was an uncertain journey of fork-poke-daring to try some questionable wares… And some were indeed questionable… but most were actually quite delicious. (Surprise surprise!) So join me, dear readers, as I tell of my orange-dyed culinary questing and testing!

KELLOGG’S PUMPKIN SPICE FROSTED MINI WHEATS

Still hearty squares of shredded wheat, these had on one side a layer of frosting that was an alarmingly bright color. But beyond the neon-pastel-orange, this cereal was quite delicious. I like mine with just a little milk, letting the cereal soak it up and get all soft, making for some particularly spiced bites. I give it 4/5 spoons.

PUMPKIN SPICE OREO

These cookies seemed to have a double-stuffed amount of icing, which is too much for me. But the flavor was good with it’s addicting sweetness. I think I’d like it better in an Oreo Thins version. Score: 2/3 cookies.

QUAKER PUMPKIN SPICE OATMEAL

I like oatmeal. Nothing says cozy like a steaming sweet treat. Mostly I enjoy your classic brown sugar or maple flavors… and sadly this one just didn’t measure up. It was alright, but I was underwhelmed. I’ll give it just under half a bowl.

THOMAS PUMPKIN SPICE ENGLISH MUFFINS

These wheaty english muffins had little flavor bits scattered through, but there was only a tint of unique flavor. I liked it alright, toasted and buttered, but just kind of average. I’ll give it half an english muffin- but the half that steals all the soft inners of the other half (because these things never split properly…)

PILLSBURY GRANDS PUMPKIN SPICE CINNAMON ROLLS

Ours didn’t look as pretty as the one on the can and they might’ve been left in the oven a bit too long… But I think I can still say that I this wasn’t amazing. Maybe if they’d made it more of a cream cheese frosting? (How can you say no to THAT idea?) I’ll go ahead and give it 7/10 sticky fingers.

PEPPERIDGE FARM SWIRL PUMPKIN SPICE BREAD

I like Pepperidge Farm’s Swirl breads, but this one might be my new favorite. It smells CRAZY GOOD while toasting to a perfect “crisp on the outside, soft on the inside” because of the slice’s thickness. Delicious buttered… This one gets a full slice rating!

LOCAL BAKER’S DOZEN GLAZED PUMPKIN SPICED DONUT

While picking up a box for a church event I was delighted to get to choose my own flavor- and of course I had to give their seasonal specialty a try! I chose the glazed. It was cakey thick, perfectly need-a-beverage-rich, and just a lovely treat! I also tried my mom’s frosted pumpkin spice donut, but that was just TOO sweet for me. The glazed is what gets a 13/12.

STARBUCKS PUMPKIN SCONE

While the place is popular for a certain flavored latte, they sadly fall short on the scone making. I like their mini vanilla bean triangles, but this larger pumpkin variety just didn’t work. It wasn’t all that moist (okay, I’ll just say it: it was dry) and it was just too too sweet. Way too sweet. 1/3 stars.

STARBUCKS PUMKIN CREAM CHEESE MUFFIN

After being just OVERWHELMED with sugar from the scone, this muffin was a much better experience. The set up is a little awkward, with a big clump of cream-cheese-sweetness in the middle (I would’ve preferred just an over the top frosting) but I did like the variety of textures and the heartiness that the nuts added. Also, this one WAS moist…. Yum. 4/5 pumpkin seeds.

BIGELOW PUMPKIN SPICE TEA

Not completely obvious in it’s pumpkin flavor, this tea is still so yummy and makes a smoother trade off for the chai that I love. I’ve no complaints hear. Full cup with a splash of milk.

R.W. KNUDSEN PUMPKIN SPICE

When my mom and I can across this sparking beverage in the grocery store, we eyed it with speculation. The label mentions “blend of spices… pumpkin juice”. “Like they drink in the Wizarding World!” I tried to be optimistic. *sigh* How foolish. Now, you may not think I’m a very good judge for this because I don’t drink carbonated things, but trust me when I say… This was awful. My mom and I popped the top (or unscrewed the lid…) and poured two small glasses, cringing at the aroma. It was… so bad. I don’t even know how to describe it. This one gets an empty bottle (and not because it was drank, but because it was poured down the kitchen sink.)

ANGIE’S BOOM CHICKA POP PUMPKIN SPICE KETTLE CORN

From one unique food to another, THIS one was actually a grand success. The popcorn is seasoned with generous (and well received) flavor and then drizzled with what seems to be white chocolate. Even though I have a strong annoyance with popcorn kernels poking my teeth and gums, I couldn’t help having this for dessert. I’d be curious about Boom Chicka Pop’s other flavors. This one, at least, seemed luxurious enough to even give as a holiday gift. It gets a Book Chicka Pop POW.

And so ends this parade of pumpkin spiced things. How you guys tried any of these- or found any other season delights? ^^

september 2016 favorites

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TOPCON GEEK EXPO 2016

This was my second time attending and I had a great time. Running Friday through Sunday, I only attended Saturday, but I spent ALL day, wandering the tables filled with fandom trinkets and printed art and crates of comics. There were some super skilled cosplayers to see, varying from Star Wars to comic to Disney characters. I also went to a LOT of panels. A couple similar to last year’s, featuring the same creatives and topics. Still, they were enjoyable and I sat listening, just trying to soak in all the energy and talent that surrounded me. There were also some new panels that I really liked. I thought Jessica von Braun was incredibly inspiring and encouraging, and it was neat hearing Spencer Wilding’s awesome stories from the acting jobs he’s had. Each year this convention gets bigger and I’m looking forward to seeing what next year’s will be like!

 

WEDDING CAKE CUPCAKE

This month my cousin got married. And you know one of the best things about attending a wedding: there’s CAKE. Or cupcakes, in this case. There were all kinds of flavors to choose from, but I went with the classic. It was divine~

 

POPCORN

At the wedding there was also a popcorn bar where there were three different flavors of my grandma Donna’s specialty Stadium Popcorn: Cinnamon Bun, Popcorn Ball, and Pumpkin Spice. I was munching from a bag-full all through cocktail hour! So sweetly addictive!

 

“GOD DAY” by Jen Stanbro

I discovered this song at the closing of a podcast and just had to find it on itunes. With a cheerful ukulele (maybe?) sound and heart-prayer lyrics, this song has been my anthem, reminder, comfort, and uplift. It’s hard to find something that fits your struggling/seeking feelings while not getting you to sit deeper in the gloom, but instead encourages you to seek the Light. This little song does that for me.

 

NEW BLOUSE

The key word here is “new”. Not clearance, not thrift store. Living without a paycheck has kept my spending on a tight leash (more like locked up and thrown away the key…). When I do make purchases, it’s out of necessity or with frugalness. However I bought a blouse this month as a just-over-$20 splurge. It has butterflies. And a bow on the back collar. And I’ve moved past feeling guilty about it to just… enjoying the treat of it. I really like my new blouse.

ALPHABEAR

I like word games. I like cute things. This app was made for me. I enjoy the boggle-type puzzle and find such childish glee whenever I earn a new bear character. Just look at the adorableness!

 

PSALM 16

My prayer and Hope.

august 2016 favorites

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VEGETARIAN SUSHI

This month the grocery store’s sushi bar had an adorably fun display of Hello Kitty bento boxes and pink-paper covered wood chopsticks. It was too much for my mom and I to resist! But we couldn’t just get the lunch container, so we picked out a pack of freshly made vegetable sushi. Soft rice with crisp carrots and cucumber and creamy avocado… It was delicious! So delicious that this last shopping trip we got some sushi-seaweed to make our own at home. We’ll see how that goes…

Confession: I’ve never eaten raw sushi. It feels almost shameful considering my interest in Japan and Korea, but it’s true. My fear for my weak stomach has just been too great for me to agree to knowingly consuming uncooked fished. Maybe one day I’ll muster up the courage.

YOGA DOWNLOAD PODCAST

As a part of my renewed efforts for taking care of myself (stress, rest, and health wise) I’ve made it priority to get back to doing some yoga. These 20 minute sessions are great, ranging in intensity and area of focus. Some of the sessions have a pose guide, but I’ve never used/needed it. However, it’s there if you’re not familiar with the names- or the podcast also has a GREAT collection of video sessions. How neat is that?

STARTING A NEW JOURNAL

To me, finishing a journal and moving on to the next is something akin to welcoming a new year. There’s a feeling of “clean slate”. Having filled my tenth journal, I was looking forward to moving onto book number eleven.

Smooth, line-less pages of just the right thickness to support light watercolor work… Inspired by many an artist before me, I’ve decided to illustrate my musings. Only just started, I can already tell how nice it is to have this pressure-free creative outlet.

STRANGE SOMETHING WILD”

(Errrrrg… I don’t know how I got the title wrong in the illustration, but there it is.)

Lindsey Stirling’s ever spectacular violin playing and Andrew McMahon’s lyrics, this song gets me right in the aching-longing-heart place. Something Wild’s calling…

BUBBLE TEA

Another asian treat that I’ve never experienced until this month! My mom and I have been eying the new drink place that moved into our mall (this year?) for a while and we finally got around to getting a beverage! Cafe Barnabas is a non-profit run by some very tea-obsessed, very friendly people- and my bubble tea was a sweet dream to sip. I ended up with an iced milky green tea with white chocolate and tapioca pearls. *So yummy!*

ROMANS CHAPTER EIGHT (MSG)

As you know, I’ve been going through this up-hill time of weariness and uncertainty. Feeling at a loss about a lot of things, this chapter is such a reminder of God’s presence and prevision. There are also some teaching words about not relying on or focusing on ourselves so much, but trusting in Christ who promises us so many good things… Just read it and find out what. ^^

convention is coming…!

I can’t believe it’s already almost time. Next month, one of the highlights of my year will have arrived! It’s my local comic-fandom-geekery convention-

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As you know from my last post, I’ve been in a horrible slump (creatively, emotionally, physically…). It’s been rough, up-hill going. I’ve been struggling to adjust to my new circumstances and schedule (aka: no schedule…) I’ve been trying to find ways to not over-stress the trials, begging creative inspiration to not be so absent, and then seeking out what snippets of time I can find to work a little on weanling projects.

Needless to say, having something that’s just WONDERFUL! CAN’T-WAIT! EXCITING! to look forward to has been a much needed pick-me-up. And TopCon has been just that for me.

You might remember me mentioning the convention last year. I was attending such a gathering for the very first time, having no idea that I would fall for the event completely. I can still remember the energy, the welcoming, the joy that came with that day. And while I’m trying not to get myself too excited (for fear of it not measuring up to my memory) I have still allowed it’s coming to be something to brighten my prospects for Tomorrow.

However, I’ve also been impatient (ha!) and thus have been collecting an assortment of relating media to tide me over. Here are a few I’ve delighted in to keep my convention-longings at bay.

CONfidence: The Diary of a Teenage Girl  – By Paige Lavoie

This story is told through the main character’s (Barbara) diary entries and is about her finding place and friendship in the world of geek-dom. This book is actually set at comic conventions now and then and Paige’s writing is spot on with the reality of these gatherings.

 

Watching Paige’s Convention Vlogs

I don’t think it’s any secret that I’m a fan of Paige’s and that I LOVE her YouTube channel. She’s sincere, kind, encouraging and loads of fun! Her videos range from sharing about her creative projects to beauty/style to geeking out- and convention vlogs! I have to admit to being a little jealous of all the events she gets to go to… But at least we get to go along via video! ^^

The Geek’s Guide to Unrequited Love  – By Sarvenaz Tash

I’ve just started reading this, so I’m not sure how good it is yet… but so far I’m liking it. It’s about a guy, Graham, who is trying to plan the perfect weekend at New York Comic-Con in hopes that his best friend, Roxy, will fall in love with him.

 

Heroine Complex – By Sarah Kuhn

This is another one that I haven’t read, but do plan on getting to soon. It sounds/looks to me like it could work as a good superhero-fix.

 

Create a Pin Board for Hypothetical Artist Alley Booths

I dream of one day having my own booth, where I will sell my art prints and copies of my book(s). Having a table to decorate. Even though I’d be crazy nervous and shy, I also think it would be so cool to meet with people who look at my stuff. Just getting to be one of the “artists” would be amazing. One day… For now, though, I’ll just pin ideas and dream and aspire to create things to actually fill a table…

 

Gamer Girl – By Mari Mancusi

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In Real Life – By Cory Doctorow & Jen Wang

It’s been a while since I’ve read either of these, but while they aren’t on the top of my list, they could be on yours if you’re a gamer.

 

Fangirl – By Rainbow Rowell

Just for the fangirl-feels and relatability. And because this book is wonderful and always deserves a reread.

 

DRAMACON – By Svetlana Chmakova

Once again, our main setting for this story is Con. I remember reading this manga trilogy years ago and really enjoying it- teenage drama and all! I’ll definitely have to check this out from my library again soon to see if it’s as good as I remember.

Dreaming Up Cosplay Ideas

Because I don’t actually have the coin to dress up. Still, I can imagine what I would be! What would I be…? 😉

 

I’m always on the look out for more geeky reads- do you have any books to recommend?

Also, what would YOU cosplay as?

july 2016 favorites (& a small update)

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SMALLCAKES CUPCAKE

My mom surprised me by bringing home a cupcake to share. It was “birthday cake” favored: white cake, buttercream frosting, and oh so delicious! It was my first treat from this cupcakery and (even though their prices are a bit high) I don’t think it will be my last! My sweet-tooth has become greatly curious as to what other flavors they have…

 

 

QUEEN ANNE’S LACE

Some call it a weed, but this is one of my favorite wild, flowering plants. It has been humid and warm in my area, which must be the prime weather for these lacy-blooms because they’re everywhere! I love getting to see their pretty abundance while on my walks.

 

PSALM 46: 1-3

(NIV) “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, the the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.” 

(MSG) “God is a safe place to hide, ready to help when we need him. We stand fearless at the cliff-edge of doom, courageous in seastorm and earthquake, Before the rush and roar of oceans, the tremors that shift mountains. Jacob-wrestling God fights for us, God-of-Angel-Armies protects us.”

Honestly, things have been kind of heavy lately. On top of the usual summertime craziness, there have been some added stresses to figure through. Creative plans I had made and been so eager to begin have been put aside… And it’s frustrating. Discouraging. Disheartening… I feel guilty at times for not being able to get back on track, but I also know how much I’ve been struggling to just keep my head above water. It’s been a weary couple of months. I’ve missed the creative rhythms I used to have, I’ve missed the schedules that helped me to better manage my anxiety, and I’ve missed YOU, dear readers… It’s hard to see how I’ll be able to get my footing again and I’ve found myself almost mourning my creative pursuits, which seem to have fallen away, fragmented and scattered…

So I’ve been trying to just CLING to my Protector, my Safe Place, my Refuge and Strength, my ever-present Helper… I need Him to get through this.

I’m sorry if this “update” is cryptic and vague. Really, I’m barely understanding these puzzles myself. But even though I’m not explaining everything fully, I did want to be honest here. I know there are other Creatives, Writers, Dreamers out there. I know that there might be a young woman reading this now who is just desperately seeking for a way, a place, a purpose, a hope… I just want to say to you: you’re not alone in your searching time. I’m there now. And we just have to keep going.

We are safe and protected, fearless and courageous- here before the rush and roar.

Because IN HIM WE CAN STAND.

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Fuzzy Pillow

A gift I received this month, this body pillow has a pretty robins egg blue design on it. Also, it’s SO SOFT. Cozy comfy. That’s all.

 

Exodus 33:14

“The LORD replied, ‘My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”

This is one verse that I’ve been clinging to of late… He is my Helper. He’s always with me and calling me to lean on Him in faith…

 

“Finding Spiritual Whitespace” by Bonnie Gray

Dear readers- I stress. Much too much. I pile perfectionism on myself, beat myself up when I don’t feel I’ve done well enough and get discouraged about what could be – should be – shouldn’t be doing.

This book was a lovely invitation to breathe. Also, Bonnie opens up in a beautifully vulnerable way that just calls you (as the reader) to be honest with yourself. I was an encouragement to take it easy and not be so hard on myself. To take the time to just REST, to just be in Christ’s presence. It was a nudging to enjoy the simple things and make that rest time a priority. Those things (and many more besides) were such a refreshing take away from this book.

But I know that Rest is still something I need to practice at. It’s going to take some effort and dedication to figure out when/how to partake- especially now because…

 

Helga

I got a puppy! Almost a week to the day after loosing my dear hound, Sage, a new tail-wagger has come into my life. Helga came from a (not too near…) no-kill shelter. She is a lab-mix, two months old, and a little timid… Not too timid, however, about making her voice heard when she doesn’t like being in her crate at night. I’m going to be honest here: I am TIRED. But this little lady is a part of our family now and I’m sure we’ll grow to be great pals.

Do you want to see the adorables? Well, here she is! (Curtesy of my talented photo-taking mom.)

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